It breaks my heart because you used to be the only person in my life I knew would always be strong enough for the both of us. The only person that wasn’t completely insane or fucked up on something. I do still look up to you, how could you even ask me that? But it kills me when you get drunk and start crying. I’ve always looked up to you. But you’ve changed and I blame him, but it’s your fault too. Now you’re just as broken as everyone else and I don’t know what you want me to tell you, I don’t know how I’m supposed to help you, I don’t know why I’ve always had to be strong enough for everyone. I never imagined that this is what our relationship would be. I miss you, I’m sorry I can’t take all of it away. I’m so sorry.
